they both said I made them feel safe
the two with crippling anxiety
the two that stop in their tracks and can't breathe
the two I can't fix, the two
who have to be pulled back into reality
after plummeting down out of all time and space
they can't see their hands right in front of them
and I make them feel safe

you can't feel the earth move, but I feel it spinning out of control
on an axis made up of the knowledge that I will forever be unable to help them
it aches in my chest, but it stabs them in the heart

I fidgeted my way through the whole wedding

it made me happy, it made me sick

like waking up from a really good dream

right before the best part

and I want it so bad that I think I'll pass out

I scoop tea into silver bags 

your name is in every second I count

my heart aches for you

to fall asleep in your arms

I start crying on the way to your house

she never plays music through the speakers, just her headphones
tonight I hear the bass and I think it's to cover up the fact that she's choking on her sobs
I can't do this, I really can't
my hairbrush shaking in my hands

please take this away from her and give it back to me
she's the one who's supposed to be living vibrantly
I've got nothing to lose, I don't have any dreams
it wasn't supposed to be her, the one ripped at the seams

she stares into space and everything in me screams
give it back, give it back
take me, take me