There will come a month, a day that you'll find
The world falls into place and he'll fall out of yours
Or she'll fall out of his or you'll fall out of mine
The days keep on passing, discard what we try

The one thing I have, and he says it's a lie
In my dreams he comes back, in my dreams we're alright
You'll crack a nice smile with a tear in your eye
You're not the one who has to apologize

Well maybe I'll watch Ferris Bueller and cry
Somebody tell me I'm not gonna die
I look in his eyes and I'm wondering why
I've seen this before, one million times

(bet)

Give me something, show me that you won't leave me alone
Bet on it, freaking bet
I bet you I could make you go
I bet I wouldn't let it show
I bet nobody would know
I can bet it on my soul
Your reputation would be gold
Bet
I bet you I'm a sucky friend
I bet you I'm a freaking mess
I bet you I could make it end, in a minute, maybe less
I bet you that I'm screwed
Heck, I bet I'm losing you
I'll ignore you for three months
And that's the best that I can do
But I bet you'll make me choose
Of course you will, how freaking dare you?
I'm choosing wrong, just watch and learn
I'll screw it up, I'm a woman of my word
Or I could try to be a friend
Or I could clean up my mess
I could fix this in a year, maybe more, maybe less
But it's pounding in my chest
I always claim I try my best
But my best at what, sabotaging myself?
This is what I wanted, isn't it?
But you can bet on my regret
End of the year, and I'm still not dead
Maybe I'm here for something
Oh, that's scary, isn't it?
Take it on a freaking bet
I always called myself a friend
I could be walking some museum
But I stay behind instead
On your way out, shut the door
We know we all love Ethan more
I shouldn't be writing a stupid poem
As if I've never dealt with this before
Sis can always take the blows
No burden's too big for her to hold
She'll take any rant I'll offer
But to the rest of you, don't waste your breath telling me it's my fault, believe me
I already know
But she's in a forest somewhere now
And I'm stranded in my home
Bet I want to be alone
Bet I won't pick up the phone
Get it my way, be on my own
Some bitter victory I've found myself
The only one I've ever known
All I want is to forget
Something that I've never said
Don't even speak to me of friend,
I'll take it on a freaking bet

I am holding on
I am holding on to you
Please just tell me, show me
That you're holding on too

Keep me afloat, keep me afloat
I've already noticed the hole in my boat
Is it there because of me?
It doesn't matter now, nothing matters when you're sinking

Here I am, my arms are flailing
The water moves, the sun is setting
Has my boat reached the bottom yet?
My joints are getting sore, I'm losing grit, I'm losing it

I don't know, is this how it's supposed to feel?
Tell me it's not real, tell me it's not real
I can't hold on much longer
That's when I notice tiger sharks

Here's the point, the encrypted message
I feel like I can't breathe
I wish I could not see
I wish I was the blind girl, that would make me something
I wish that you were happy
I wish that I was grasping
I wish that I could make you proud, all I wanted was for you to see how this works
Have you ever noticed how I stop rhyming when I feel I need to scream?
I think that I'm exploding, I fear I'm bursting at the seams
And not a soul can see
Not even me
Everything is too loud
My legs, they slide across my sheets
And I am restless
The yelling downstairs gets quieter when I'm screaming at myself
Blood pounds into my head, and I
Don't know what I'm saying
I think I'm sick, but everyone else says it's okay
It's completely normal
Are my arms completely normal?
Please don't leave, I am suffocating
I am suffocating on this planet

I took a step off what I thought was just a stair
But my foot is still falling
And all four walls ask "is this is what you wanted?
"Congratulations--
"you sit in the corner of your room."
And alone, I ponder the voices
Full of half-truths
And honestly, I don't know
I guess it's hard for anybody to visit
When I burn all the bridges
Maybe I just wanted something to prove
And my walls, they are screaming at me
And I'm listening
"You're doing this to yourself"
But let me out, I cannot get out
Where is the exit
Someone tell me what to do
'Cause I can't breathe, and I can't see their faces
I can't escape this
I have nowhere else to go
And my ceiling, it says that I have no one
But is that my pride?
Or do people tell me with their eyes?

Am I scared or just anticipating?
Would You really use me to do great things?

I check just to make sure that the coast is clear
I know you told me you would be right here
But I'm hiding in the corner and I'm filled with fear
Where did you go, am I alone,
Or is that just how it appears?

I need to polish the gears in my mind
They can't turn without a heartwrenching whine
It's so loud, makes me feel I can't breathe
They're staring so hard, looking at the wall behind me
I want to scream that I'm here, but I'm not all that sure
The hesitance seems a bit more than I can endure
I promise, I promise, I promise
Don't worry about me, I will always believe
But something in my head or heart is bursting at the seams
And I'm always alone, always alone in my dreams
And in reality I slip away,
It scares me how I separate
But I can't sleep tonight
Just like the good old times
Something is killing me, and it might be coming from inside
I always say I cannot be here, but I don't think I want to die
What hurts me most is looking into their eyes
I cannot change a thing, no matter how hard I try
I jolted awake from sleep because I thought I was falling
Now I wish I was asleep because I feel that constantly
I need to restart, I need to restart
The ceiling painted all the words to tell me I can't do it
I hope you're sleeping right now, I hope you aren't being torn into pieces
And I know it scares you when I say I don't know what I'm doing here
But I suppose I'm just having one of those nights/years
I just want to make you proud, and I don't know how
Or even how to get out of bed in the morning
I know I need to stop buying into these lies
They scream into my ear that I'm running out of time
Through the walls of my mind, through the air, through my home
They're screaming bloody murder telling me that I'm alone
I know it's false, but the problem is that I'm screaming too
But over all these other sounds I just don't have enough volume