"I didn't want to watch you die."

"You should have closed your eyes."

(heart)

And if there's just one more chance
If it's just one last dance
I'll take it.



I'll always take it.

Would You Rather

I didn't have nightmares

But hardly got sleep

It's always one or

The other, it seems

Checkmate pt. XII

I know he's lonely
I watch him wander alone at church
I watch him analyze the hurt

I know he's lonely

He doesn't smile much at all
My prayers echo off the walls

I know he's lonely

If only he was my brother
Through one ear, and out the other

I know he's lonely

His momma cries
So do I

I know he's lonely

Guilt, not doubt
That I had to turn around

I know he's lonely

Just a little bit too tricky
Warding off the guilt that hits me

I know he's lonely

Don't catch tears behind those glasses
Chance for conversation passes

I know he's lonely

Walks by himself like I used to

What am I supposed to do?

Screaming.

Listen to me, you can't always win
That's where God comes in 

Hallelujah

Said the things you didn't know
We're holding on and letting go

Final.

And in the morning,
I'm going home again
Suitcase packed, prayers unstacked,
Thinking of my friends

I'll swallow nostalgia
And walk the road
Freezing air and I'll stand there
Thoughts from head to toe

This is where we went
Up to retrieve a ball
Sprinted by him, had to be quick
Remembering it all

This is where we walked
As they sang songs behind me
I hummed Shooting Star, someone in my heart,
The stars had yet to find me

This is where I ran
To catch up to my friend
Heart was pounding, head unwounding
But something had to be said

This is where we laughed
When it wasn't pretend
Joke and shout, let it out
I'm going home again

You are good, You are good
When there's nothing good in me

And now it's ten after four..

Marble.

Don't wanna live inside this head
I'd rather try to breathe again
Get out, get out,
I shan't last in here
Where everything changes
Where nothing is clear
Anxiety settles in
Sorrow makes a home
Long as I'm in my head
I think that I'm alone
Don't really know what to do about this
Wish I could take it out of me and analyze it
Pull it under a magnifying glass
Answer all the questions that I've always asked
Maybe it's in me for good, and maybe it's not
So I take a step out, and see what I've got
What I see is like a marble
Swirling colors in place
As though seeing a hurricane
All the way from outer space
Dark colors in my marble
Storms of what I feel
Leaving me to ask myself
Which one's actually real
Then there are prettier colors
Like lavender and mint
Probably signifying faith
And words that are His
They bloom within the black
And spread like paint in water
They fade, but never die
Because He's an undying father
Then there's sunset orange
And that's you, I know
It fights against the dark
And tells it to leave me alone
There are many other colors
From pinks to ones in the ocean
To symbolize different people
And places and emotions
Some of them are consistent
And yet some go away
Some of them are ones that
I so wanted to stay
Colors of my memories
Vividly arrive
Some look melancholy
And some, in happiness, thrive
Nostalgia fills the marble
Creeping in between the borders
Of every single moment
Every feeling, every color
The colors help me see a bit
Of what's going on inside
I can tell a few colors I need
And some I have to fight
The hard part is just knowing
Which ones I'll get to keep
And trying not to think of
Ones that have yet to leave

Song Prompt pt. II

So, Baylie decided to do this again, and so I did too!  Because you know, taste in music changes.


A song from your childhood:  "Spies," by Coldplay.
A song that reminds you of your parents:  "One Sixteen," by Trip Lee for my dad.  And the line about the chickadee in "Honey and the Bee," by Owl City, for my mom. :)
A song that calms you down:  "Not Alone," by Red.
A song that is often stuck in your head:  "Kitchen Sink," by Twenty One Pilots.
A song that reminds you of a best friend:  "Closer to Love," by Mat Kearney.
A song that makes you hopeful:  "Amsterdam," by Imagine Dragons.
A song by your favorite band:  "Taken by Sleep," by Twenty One Pilots.
A song on the soundtrack of your favorite movie:  "Deliverance," by Brian Tyler.
The last song you heard:  "Ships in the Night," by Mat Kearney.
A song that you love singing along to:  "The Chain," by Ingrid Michaelson.
A song that has made you cry:  "A Drop in the Ocean," by Ron Pope; "Heaven Forbid," by The Fray.
A song that you love, but rarely listen to:  "Arms," by Christina Perri.
Your favorite song:  "All About Us," by He is We; "Guns for Hands," by Twenty One Pilots; "Take My Hand," others...
A song that someone has sung to you:  "All About Us," by He is We.
A song that you cannot stand to listen to:  Something about a party on the rooftop top of the world... and Idk who it's by, I kind of can't stand it.
A song that you could listen to all day without getting tired of:  "All is Well (Goodbye, Goodbye)," by Radical Face; "Open Hands," by Ingrid Michaelson.

Pride.

Cheerily to sea. The signs of war advance.
No king of England if not king of France.





Henry V

idol worship

I will not bow to the god of fear.

Track

I always say I can't describe
But still, I felt the need to try
But no matter what I say
Still, there are no words to explain
Thank you for your faith in our King
Thank you for your voice when you sing
Thank you for your smiling eyes
Thank you for every ounce of time
Thank you that you understand
Thank you for our Neverland
Thank you for the joy you bring
Thank you for your loyalty
Thank you for loving Him first
Thank you for your beautiful words
Thank you for holding the door
And all the friendship you've ever given before
Thank you for your happiness
Thank you for your gentleness
Thank you for being my optimist
Thank you for your radiance
Thank you for reflecting God's Light
Like I've noticed for a really long time
Words will never be enough
But thank you for every bit of love

Ice.

"I could have seen it coming," she said
"I could have tried to stop it.
"But Mom broke her foot,
"And I never forgot it.

"You can't take on blame
"That isn't yours.
"Just like I did
"Some time before."

I want to tell her this isn't about guilt
That I'm not taking all of that on
But I discover doubt hidden underneath
Maybe some of it's guilt after all

This is the New Year

Another year you made a promise

Another chance to turn it all around

And do not save this for tomorrow

Embrace the past, and you can live for now

And I will give the world to you

Speak louder than the words before you

And give them meaning no one else has found

The role we play is so important

We are the voices of the underground

And I will give the world to you

Say everything you've always wanted

Be not afraid of who you really are

'Cause in the end, we have each other

And that's at least one thing worth living for

And I will give the world to you

A million suns that shine upon me

A million eyes, you are the brightest blue

Let's tear the walls down that divide us

And build a statue strong enough for two

I pass it back to you

And I will wait for you

'Cause I will give the world

And I will give the world

And I will give the world to you

This is the new year

A new beginning

You made a promise

You are the brightest

We are the voices

This is the new year

We are the voices

This is the new year

Song by A Great Big World.  "This is the New Year."

(You should seriously listen to this song, it's really good.)

Dear 2016,

I don't wanna take my time
Don't wanna waste one line

I wanna live better days
Never look back and say
"It could have been me."



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