Breadcrumbs.

I'll be Hazel,
You be Jack
If you lose yourself,
I'll bring you back
If you lose sight
And fall apart
I'll do my best
To fix your heart
If you slip away
I'll journey to find you
If you forget yourself
Then I'll remind you
If it seems that you
Are on your own
Don't worry, Jack,
I'll bring you home.

Dizzy

You got my mind spinning
You've got my head spinning
Always feel like I'm winning
Winning life, or something
When I'm in your arms
And you're in my heart
Always, always,
In my heart.
Everybody laughs at how dizzy I get
When you're around, I could easily bet
That there isn't one detail I'll ever forget
You are the best person that I've ever met.

Thank you, God,
For people so good
That I miss them so much.

"We have to just let people go sometimes and move on."


"I know. But it's so much harder to do that when they've moved on first."

Captive

A thousand "what if" scenarios
Play out in my head
And the time 11:30
Tells me I should go to bed

The poison ivy on my arms
Is driving me insane
But it's the thoughts inside my mind
That are keeping me awake

The rain washes over
These cozy little rooftops
Inside of my head
I try to process
Everything

The sound of raindrops in my ears
The soft of a pillow in my arms
Curled under the covers in my bed
And with the ceiling fan off
Finally

Like the rain
Emotions come and go in waves
Yet at some sort of pace
With only the thought of you to keep me
Company

Save Yourself.

And I still act like this whole friends thing is new to me.

Still can't keep up a conversation
Still surprised when someone cares
Still stare at the wall in the night
And no one's there, I swear
And she texts me all the time
And he calls me on the phone
And they pray for me at night
While I learn to hold my own
Is there fear still in my eyes?
Is my heart still made of stone?
Go away, go away, go away

Don't leave me alone

The Funny Ones

The sun is on our side
Everything's always bright
We are the funny ones
We are the ones that are alright

We're alright

Good morning world, so nice to see you
Good morning friend, please smile for me
We'll crack a joke or two for you
And laugh until you're full of glee

The sun is on our side
Everything's always bright
We are the funny ones
We are the ones that are alright

They usually like when I'm around
Because I tend to make them smile
I'll make light of everything
So you're glad you're alive for a while

The sun is on our side
Everything's always bright
We are the funny ones
We are the ones that are alright

We are the happiest of all
Oh, just please don't look too close
They can't see laughter is our wall
And we are not as fine as most

See,
We always smile like we're strong
So no one ever thinks anything's wrong
Maybe I don't want you to hear my real song
Maybe I don't want you to hear my real song
I'll make you laugh so you stay alive
She makes you smile 'cause she knows what it's like
To be all alone and do nothing but cry
And he's the funniest boy, but I've seen tears in his eyes
The jesters are the most sensitive ones
We put on this mask so you all look at us
That's the paradox of them and of me
Everyone looks, but nobody sees
See?
My momma said I was born with Daddy's wit
So I turned it around and hid under it
'Cause when you make it light,
They think everything's fine,
But I'm not sure that that's what I really wanted
But the thing about us is we see through each other
That's why that one there always felt like my brother
Why I make sure she's okay, as though I'm her mother
And that's why compared to you there was never another
When you're both jokers, you see through each other.

The sun is on our side
Everything's always bright
We are the funny ones
The ones that always hide


We're alright.

Anything.

Call me anything you like,
Just don't call me unoriginal.

Hours

And tonight 

Saying "I trust You"

Is enough

The way God works things out
Is so perfect
So perfect.

Third Place

I used to be able to grab a pen
And pour out the contents inside of my head
I used to be able to grab a sheet from this blog
And communicate all of the things that were wrong
I used to be able to go on and on
I used to go on and on..
Today, I'm feeling a lot bit in my head
And so I am going to try this again.
First thing's first,
There's always her
Underlying in
Every word
She remains unnamed
But remains all the same
Is this guilt,
Or is this blame?
Then there's the other one
Her, I call mine
My "little punk girl"
Used to be here all the time
But I guess that's the point
She's not my little girl
She's my older sister
And a huge part of my world
And she's going away
But she asked me today
I was pulled aside by an INTJ
And she asked if I was okay
Wow.
I might have looked surprised
She said she wasn't blind
I'm almost too ashamed to admit
That's exactly what she was in my mind
You see, I'm getting older too
And I still don't know what I want to do
Believe me, friend, I've thought it through
But it never works how I want it to
I'm undecided endlessly
And I guess it's showing
Mom says take one step at a time
But I don't know where I'm going
And everything is symbolic to me
I'm a little too thoughtful, a little too deep
Like how I watch the bathroom towels
Fall straight onto the floor
Though I keep putting them back up
And to me it means much more
And how the pages right before me
Keep blowing to the other end
Thin and quite unsure of themselves
But you reach and keep fixing them
Or how I don't want to stay in the game
Because second place is worst
And you try to help me keep my place
'Cause though I don't, you have faith I'll get first
A friend of mine is also on my mind
I try to find words for her every time
Because I hear her when she says,
"If I wake up, then I'll pretend
"I didn't hear those screams again."
I, myself, understand that language
Despite popular belief
I've understood a thousand tongues
Because of all the ones I speak
Some of them don't see it, though
Maybe I just don't let it show
Envious of the good girl
Jealous of the perfect world
But I can tell you now, my friend
That perfect life is in your head
Her castle isn't on the ground
It's in her head and in the clouds
And yet, people mean too much to me
I can't find a balance
Between telling them what's right and what's not
And accepting them for who they are
I can't make anyone feel how I'm feeling
Thank goodness for that, but it leaves no room for understanding
So I quietly put my troubles in songs
Because if there's pain involved
Then they'll sing along
And then maybe my trouble will stop.
Wrong.
My heart beat faster as I ran farther
But this is something that I have to face
It doesn't work like that, but I keep waking up
With the hope for another new day
But I fail myself when I fail them
Oh, heaven forbid me let down my friends
To wipe away her silky tears
They leave black smudges around her eyes
I hope she knows I really tried
Every day I hit a point where I break for my room
I can't let my brothers see me blow stability a kiss
And then I break down, sobbing into my pillow
Saying, "I cannot keep doing this."
It's too much for me
It's too much for you
It's too much after all
That my God's pulled me through
A shattered person is all I see
Mirror me, mirror me
Her lungs are scarred and she can't breathe
Mirror me, oh mirror me
I run until I'm caught
I'm fine until I'm not
I smile until I stop
I fly until I drop
They're busy with her
I'm busy with them
The broken, beautiful people
That I still call my friends
She stopped pouring her heart out to me
When she found I couldn't fix her
And they all think I have it better
But they're still my friends, of that I'm sure
Everything's going so fast
I can't take it all in
So I'm left in the corner
Trying to process all this
It comes out in sick rhymes
Till I've got nothing else
There's no space in my mind
Anymore for myself
So squeezing my eyes shut
My strangled voice with one thing left to say..

There is power in the name of Jesus
To break every chain, break every chain, break every

Chain.

Millions

Tomorrow I'll do better
Tomorrow I'll try harder
Tomorrow I'll go longer
Tomorrow I'll start over
Tomorrow I'll try
Tomorrow I won't let it
Escape through my eyes

I cannot put it down in rhymes

I cannot breathe again tonight

For the first time in my life I enjoy being caught in something I cannot escape.

There's you in my eternity

And suddenly you're gone

Like there's still a connection 

But somehow you're lost

I don't wanna plunge into this week

Not if you're absent, I need you with me

There are pieces of you in everything

And it gives me joy, but it's not the same as you, you see

Living off my memories 

Every time a new day is breaking

You make a day fly by

A weekend, or five

But the hours stretch when you're not by my side

And I feel like an idiot when it escapes through my eyes

Gravity

I don't wanna let you go
I'm not gonna let you go

Because people lose faith
And people, they break

And I watch lovers around me fall
They crumble and curl up with nothing at all

But I'm holding onto you, if that's alright with you
Persistent, stubborn, devoted, maybe all of them are true

Ours is a different type of gravity
'Cause we fall without losing our clarity

Like we fall deeper into each other's hearts
Instead of simply falling apart