Tomorrow

I have these memories alive in my head
If I can't see you yet
I'll see them instead
Falling off that dock because you're such a goon
Can I see you soon?
I sit in my room
Hearing your laugh bounce off of my walls
Night must fall
For tomorrow to call

The Conflict

For the light may fade
And the sky turns to gray
While they all walk away
Leaving your heart to break
But your life is a story,
And this is only a page.

Beginning.

So open your eyes and take a breath
Remind yourself, "It's not over yet."

Sunset.
When galaxies and fantasies are bursting from my room.

Face Down

Face down
They'll never see it
Paper face down
They'll never read it
With everything I write
I keep it all inside

Face down
They'll never see it
They never look around
Wouldn't care to read it
I'm so good at hiding things
I should win a prize

The Truth

I listen at night
To my Spotify
'Cause I get too anxious when I close my eyes
With all of my might
I'm out of my mind
Which decides that it hates me, and at sundown takes flight
A main reason why
I've chosen to write
Call me insane, but I think I'm alright
Wake up at two
Thinking of you
And it makes me smile 'till I feel like a goon
I cannot choose
Whatever I do
Do I like waking up, or do I wanna sleep 'till noon?
I'll fly to the moon
When I'm dreaming soon
I think you've chased away my nightmares, and that is the truth.

Keep On Walking

I remember things so vividly
And this one memory just stays
I smile when I think about it
A joy that won't go away

It's a certain walk we took
That's staying in my head
And when that walk was over
I swear I almost said,

"I feel so much better when you're around
"You cheer me up when I am down
"This has been so nice, I hope it's not a dream
"Let's keep on walking."

Trees on either side of us
The sky above was blue
A dirt path beneath my feet
As I walked next to you

A certain happiness filled my heart
A certain letter I read
And as that walk came to a close
I truly almost said,

"I don't deserve to get to call you my friend
"And I wish this path would never end
"This has been so nice, I hope it's not a dream
"Let's keep on walking."

Maybe if I could have stretched the path long enough
It wouldn't have gone by so fast
And maybe if I had just gone slow enough
That walk of ours could last

And I remember then
That most things have to end
And it's alright, yeah it's okay
Because more walks can begin again

So I sighed and kept my mouth shut
I didn't say a word
We'll still keep on walking
Just not along that dirt

Exit Signs

Our conversations are so funny
They make sense to no one else
You'll say something hysterical
But no one gets it except myself

We were laughing so hard
They asked, "What's so funny?"
You glanced at me and said,
"Exit signs, actually."

Absence

I woke up today
And the first thing I felt
Was the gravity of your absence
I was all by myself

It hurt quite a bit
And took me by surprise
My heart was so heavy
Take me back to last night.

Code Words

"You're gonna get there,"
That's what we all need to know
When you are scared
When you're alone

I stand here, you're smiling
But I see what most don't see
You tell me you're fine
Whatever that means

You don't realize--
I've used those code words, too
It doesn't matter what excuse you have
'Cause I'll see right through

And you know, that's a good thing
Because who will you tell?
No one, I know
They don't know you're unwell

Lying in your room
Wanting to scream at the ceiling
You think you'll be gone
That you won't find your healing

I love you for who you are.
I'm talking to all of you.

One of you is freaking out
Because it just might be falling apart
This wasn't supposed to happen--
Your friend left, and it's breaking your heart

Another one of you is crying
Because you're not sure if you'll find the one
You're getting unbearably lonely
Not sure if he cares, unsure you'll ever see the sun

And still one with the weight on her shoulders
You feel everything at one time
Your feet glued to the ground
You want only to fly

One of you knowing
You're your own worst enemy
And it's hurting you inside
Everyone's blind, nobody sees

And then there's you.
Unbelievably strong, though you don't know it
Scared of the future and finding your place
But your smile, it just won't show it

Now, back to the beginning
There's something I'd like to share
Something you need to hear
You're gonna get there.

"I hope that you see right through my walls
"I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling"

(From "Arms" by Christina Perri.)

This Feeling

Maybe it won't happen this time!
But as that thought comes into my mind
I feel it again, I feel it inside

It's a swelling, stirring in my heart
Sometimes I could swear it'll tear me apart
It's so violent, it hits me so hard

My heart is thumping in my chest
Adrenaline rushing through my legs
I'm trying to hide it, I'm trying my best

Yeah, it's a swelling, stirring in my heart
It usually happens when I'm in the car
Driving to you, or when you're not far

It almost hurts inside my knees
But at the same time, they can't feel a thing
And my head throbs, it pounds to a beat

I'm so full of this, whatever it is
And I might pass out, I can't handle it
The reason for this, I will not admit

Just when I think that I'll fly through the ceiling
I finally change my mind--
I do like this feeling.

Shooting Star

Little girl
Watching shooting stars
Just a little girl
Wishing in her heart

See the sky
Those meteors won't land
One flies by
And she'll wish for Peter Pan

They're so bright
But she thinks of her friend
Who shines so bright
Brighter than a shooting star

Train and the Briefcase

Blame is a briefcase
And life is a train
Jake didn't want the former
So he handed me the blame

Well, I didn't like that
So I gave it to Claire
But she didn't want that briefcase
And told me it wasn't fair

So I took it back and gave it to George
Who shoved it in Amy's face
Amy gave hated him for that
And gave it back to Jake

"Alright," said the train conductor
"I've had it with this game.
"Someone needs to take that briefcase
"And step off of this train."

We all looked at each other
Who deserved to die?
Surely, it couldn't be me
But that's what we all thought inside

Then someone stepped from the shadows
I believe it was the Son of God
Well, he grabbed that briefcase
And with a loving "farewell," he got off.

Tell him he did a good job,
'Cause he doesn't hear it enough
Tell him he's appreciated,
Tell him that he's loved

I don't care if it's your brother
I don't care if it's a friend
Just tell him, 'cause he needs to hear it
Tell him exactly what I said

This is the Future, by Owl City

Wake up

On your own

And look around you

'Cause you're not alone

Release your high hopes

And they'll survive

'Cause this is the future

And you are alive

Dive in

And swim away

From your loneliness

And miserable days

And when you wake up

On your own

Look around you

'Cause you're not alone

Let your hopes go

And they'll survive

'Cause this is the future

And you are alive

You're headed home

You're headed home

Somebody Else

I can slowly feel myself
Becoming your "somebody else"
And I don't know what I should say
So I watch myself slip away

I always knew this day would come
But I'm not mad at you for love
I just don't want you to forget
That I'm still here, don't leave me yet

Those Lives

It's only when he's gone you'll listen
It's only when she's lost you'll see
All this time you took them for granted
But they held a dark reality

And someday you will see her heartbreak
Someday you will see his tears
Someday you'll notice that you aren't
The only one with dreadful fears

Maybe you'll look around one day
And see the lives of all your peers
Yeah, all this time you took them for granted
All those lives you forgot to hold dear

Home

You're coming home!
So, welcome home.
I hope you had fun,
But I'm glad you're home.
Finally home.

Friend.

I am your friend.
And if I am your friend,
Then it doesn't matter if the world is your enemy.
Because I will fight for you
Like no one else.

Ghost

I looked in the mirror
But no one was there
That's what I thought
Nothing but air

It's no shock to me
Am I a stranger?
Examine my heart
But you won't find anger

No one else will I blame
For my being a ghost
But I still feel things
Which puzzles me the most

Smiles come my way
"How are you?"
Talking to the person behind me
That's how it goes

Then there are others
They say, "Hey Emily!"
They're friends with a girl
But it's not me.

Real Maps

While studying,
I learn about maps
I think of you,
And it makes me laugh
Because we both know
What real maps are
Not a piece of paper--
They're in your heart.

This is What I Choose.

They say I must choose
But do I have to?

"Know what you'll do with your life.
"Succeed in school, become a rich wife."

My childish heart pulls me away
From everything they have to say

I want to be free
Is that too much to give to me?

The restless heart of a little girl
She was made for another world

But you're different, see, you don't feed me lies
And I love to see this place through your set of eyes

This planet gets dark, here comes the night
We can't see the sun, but we'll continue to fight

Because the sun must go down
For the stars to come out

And you'll keep looking to the Night Sky,
While I, the dandelion, will be by your side.

One Thing

Life will get rough
And storms will come in
We will feel lost
Alone in our sins

But one thing I know:
These storms will end
And I will not feel them
If you're still my friend

The Girl.

The girl who runs away
From reality
The girl who forgets
Her own fatality

She stands so strong
Swears no one can move her
She gives her battle cry
But it's only a whisper

And she's fighting a war
No one else can see
The enemy's winning
But she will not flee

The girl who dances in her room
And pretends she can sing
The girl who looks down from the heights
And pretends she has wings

She wears no makeup
Hoping it will help
Somebody to love her
Just for herself

And she's fighting a war
No one else can see
The enemy's winning
But she will not flee

And how could you call that girl your friend?
How could you stick with her to the end?
She won't understand,
She thinks that you'll leave.
So please prove her wrong,
Because that girl is me.

Excursion

You make me laugh,
Though you're forever away
And even though you're gone,
In my mind you'll stay

Hurry up with
Your excursion, my friend
'Cause I'm staring at
My fob watch again

Don't worry, I'm not
Stuck in the gloom
'Cause you worry too much,
You silly goon

:)P

Fly On

But what do you do?
When time flew too fast
And took things from you?
You opened your heart,
Time broke it in two.
Now you're left there, shocked,
Alone in your shoes.

And what if the love
Is not worth the pain?
You lose all your time,
And what do you gain?
Yesterday you were close,
Now you're so far away.
Time left you again,
With nothing to say.

But you're forgetting something:
Remember? You're strong.
And don't forget also--
We know where we belong.
In the meantime, we'll still be
Singing our song.
We'll meet again soon,
For now, we fly on.

Seen

I know you see
The side of me
That no one ever sees

I don't know how
You're everything
I wish that I could be

'Cause you show me
The side of me
That I  have never seen.

Home

But tell me,
Is it possible
To be home while
You're so far away from your house?
Because,
If not,
It looks like I broke the rules again.

This Week!

This week up ahead
Is in front of my eyes
But I can't see what's in store
As hard as I try

Still, that's fine with me
I don't have to know
But I know one thing for sure
I will not be alone

Adrenaline already
Pumps through my heart
And it's been far too long
That we've been apart

Clueless

I hope someday you'll see
How much you amaze me.

Huge and Little Things

Do you ever think,
"Oh crap, I'm falling in love!"
Or ever get a message,
And swear it's from above?

Do you ever suddenly
Remember a childhood memory?
Or find yourself in paradise
And hope it's not a dream?

It's the huge and little things
That make up this life
We know we're here for something,
Or else our Savior wouldn't have died

And do you ever find a picture
From when you were a kid?
Or sworn you'd never grow up,
Then laughed and cried because you did?

Do you ever find God
In the middle of your misery?
Or peace in a tornado-
Well, what else could it be?

And do you ever just sing,
Not caring how you sound
'Cause your singing to someone,
Even though they're not around?

Not That Silly

Really, really
It isn't that silly
To pray for a husband that
Loves God more than me

'Cause if his soul's in tact
And his heart's on track
Tell me,
Can he love me better than that?