sleepyhead

"And don't go to bed yet, love, 

"I think it's too early,

"And we just need a little time to ourselves"

Well it took me long enough to realize that I'm suffocating

Occasional paralysis that steals my breath and destroys my lungs

And I wonder why, just like the fool that I am, hating every one of my songs

It's because he's gone, it's because he's gone

And college is a wonderful place to move on

But what if you're stuck in a messy room, the one your dad keeps telling you to clean?

And I should be alright 'cause I'm bloody eighteen

But here I am, trapped in the cycles of high school drama

With nothing for my mind to drill upon but your absence 

Well, I promise I'll get better

I will clean up this room 

I will be brave and strong

I will sleep well

I will stop thinking about people who are gone

And I will grow up to be everything that I need to be

And I will fully support all the people who need me

My pillowcase will be free of any tear stains

I will be independent and I will be the definition of okay

I will be a woman who can figure things out just in time

I will mature and learn how to do something with my life

But just not tonight,

Just not tonight