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I know that I cannot fix this
I wish that that was all it took
For me to stop feeling the pressure
With the universe on my shoulders

Still, I crumble to my knees
Bury my face in my hands on my bed
I need to see him in twenty years
God, tell me he's alive in twenty

I thought I'd get better at this
How many times can someone's heart break?
And is it more or less for him?
What with his soul floating along in the wind

Yet, I pine over my beloved
So selfishly, counting down the hours
I want only to see him again
While the hearts around me fall dead

And I feel it at two in the morning
All the distance between him and me
I know I need to swallow my pride
Trying to prove each other wrong, trying to prove each other right

I used to have nightmares that you'd leave me
Now I just dream that you come back
White-knuckling my pillow when I wake up
A few cities away shouldn't be such a shake-up

He said there's always a crucial moment
That could end a relationship
And over the phone, we're crying
We stay up way too late to fix anything

An hour is making a place in my heart
You fall asleep on the phone with me when I'm at school
You are the one that I will always run to
I'll stay through anything, I will not lose you

But the tears come anyway and I tell you I'm alone
"Baby, you've got me, I'm not far away"
I guess it just kills me we have to say this over the phone
But I press it to my chest and try to feel you this close