Write me as an afterthought
Enraptured in the air you breathe
Would it kill you to become a bit stronger?
I cannot hold everything
To anger, a long due goodbye
I'm sick of being mad

It makes me weak to think about
My hands and knees are trembling
I'm asking them if you still hate me
I cannot hold everything
Why do I ask the questions I
Don't want the answers to

Forgive me, I cannot think straight
My vision's getting blurry
For a second there, I thought you were lying
Then the floor came out from under me
Why are you still in my head?

my prayer to You tonight is the declaration that I will not give up

here it is

You fill my lungs with breath for a reason

ambulance

I wonder how they fell in love

dreams from last night have affected my day

I'm seeing things through a heartwrenching daze

I can't write this essay, I'm too wide awake 

or maybe I'm trapped in my nightmarish state

all I see is you approaching and yelling at me

a lurch in my stomach tells me someone is going to kill me

I sense a bond with people who don't believe

I have this urgency to save my family

I think it's dripping with symbolism

but I don't want to pay attention

paranoia is a prison

he's screaming psychological tension

I feel fingers brushing against mine

I see someone losing his mind

I feel a genuine fear for my life

I see my reflection with tears in her eyes

my heart is racing, I'm short of breath

I tell my sister I'm not ready for death

I've got to get going, I wake up in bed

my room is dark and so is my head

"I feel lonely everywhere except for with you"

we embrace the title "troubled youth"

the doors are glass, a fire shines through

a pathway to the car for two

I tell you it's fine, he's just losing his mind

you're yelling at me and breaking inside

put your hand into mine, I just don't want to die

how can I go to heaven and leave the hellbound behind?

chocolate

I've been writing this research paper

do schools kill creativity?

sucking on the irony

where are we going?

we fade out after high school

not staying, but certainly not leaving

you go your way, I'll go mine

drift is the word of the day

why can't you hold on to the moments, do you not see them?

the taste of chocolate in my mouth

denim on denim, two liters of hairspray

how big does something have to be to change your life?

what are you going to say after you graduate?

if we each got a sentence

what would yours be?

I keep dreaming of all the people

I haven't given Bibles to

last night was violent

I was tired, I turned to lean on your shoulder

and found my rock hard pillow instead

I don't remember waking up

what's the difference between consciousness and unconsciousness?

I'm afraid in both, but the sky's lighter here

and I'm never physically assaulted in real life

in my dream-state I looked at my sister, who was the same

"I can't do this anymore, I'm going to wake up"

she nodded and I was transferred from one haze to another

there was dust on this chair before I sat in it

there is the mark that I have made