Timing.

Heartbroken lover all alone
Crying for the bruises and the reason she has them
"I'll change my ways," he says, then does it again
Finally she's leaving him
But he takes the kids so that she'll never find them
Moving across the country just to make a statement
But just you wait child, says God, just you wait
As she cries in the car, just you wait

Lonely little boy shouldn't have to see
Dad shouting at Mommy on the couch weeping
Only to be taken from Mom, leaving the country
Moving from house to house, never really staying
And when Mom finally finds you
Dad tells you to choose
So you stay with Dad, because what are you supposed to do?
But just you wait, child, just you wait
Your mother thinks of you and prays

They're reunited after years and years
He's nineteen and she's in tears
In Rockwall Texas on solid ground
Because she prayed and He always hears
Little boy had to lose himself in order to find faith



Little girl loves a boy on accident
Don't tell her she does because she will deny it
You know, it makes her hate herself because why oh why
When there's nothing you can do so you close your eyes
But just you wait little girl, just you wait
Get down on those knees and pray
Just you wait

She doesn't even want to hear the test results
Nothing's happening, and everything at once
Why.
It hurts too much, but at the same time she's grown numb
Maybe she just wants to know she's still one of us
That she's allowed to cry whenever she wants
Her Mom and her family and her best friend
Dying for beginnings and crying for ends
But just you wait, just you wait
You'll smile when you look back one day
Just you wait

He beats his guitar at three a.m.
But no one will know 'cause he'll never tell them
Wondering what's keeping him here
Sobbing into his pillow even though nobody hears
Swearing to the closet door he'll run away
Making lists of what he'll take
But just you wait, oh just you wait
You can only see through a little frame,
Just you wait










(I'm not gonna proofread this because I'm too tired.)

7/19/16

That's when I looked up and saw the moon.
A full moon, glowing, illuminating the sky.
I then considered how beautiful it was, yet, the light was not its own;
The sun, though hidden from my eyes, was shining through the moon,
As the moon readily reflected the sun's beauty,
Causing beauty of its own, in a way.

I do not wish to be the sun.
My Jesus is the sun, and I wish to be the moon.
I want people to look at me and think, "wow,
"How bright is she, how radiant."
Then I want them to realize.
"But look how she did not create this light.
"It is simply a reflection of something greater,
"Something we can see just through her as of now."
And if my light is so beautiful, it is only a fraction.
I want to be nothing more than what You made me to be,
Nothing less than what You want from me.
Help me illuminate the dark
When people don't know who You are.
"Yes, a reflection of something greater;
"A reflection of her Saviour."




So help me glow until the end
Until the Sun rises again.

So what am I supposed to say
When Spotify shuffles to All About Us
And I scramble to pick up my idiot phone
Pull up the screen and skip it at once

And what am I supposed to say
When I catch myself rejecting the sun
I stay under my covers a little too long
If I see you tonight, I don't wanna wake up



Sorry to be so dramatic, I just miss you a lot.

"I'll see you soon."



That's the difference between the dream and reality.

Cracks

Don't drown me in sorrow, I don't know how to swim
You tell me they're gone 'cause I can't handle it
Don't promise me tomorrow if you won't let me win
You feed me your lies just to see my skull split

You pretend that I'm crazy but you understand
Too many casualties you've casually planned
Make my loves seem like airplanes who crash instead of land
Dropping like flies in the palm of your hand

Don't remind me of yesterday, yesterday's beat
Hard enough to keep walking with barbed wire in my feet
You taunt me with tomorrow as if cough syrup's sweet
Holding my strings in the cracks of your teeth

Don't tell me I'll lose him, don't burn down my home
Turning a breeze to a blizzard when I'm not in control
Don't snatch him up from me to leave me alone
Go choke on the fear that you shove down my throat

Don't tell them I'm fine while killing me mentally
Making me freeze until you're the new death of me
Don't stare at me quizzically, this isn't Jeopardy
Hope you're satisfied when I crush my own masterpiece

Never say never, 'cause you spoke too soon
You made this a fight that I can't afford to lose
Don't leave me to hang from these thoughts like a noose
I'm sorry about this but you've blackened my room

When she was gone, I was sure I didn't miss her

But now that she's back, I feel rather refreshed

Like I was holding my breath

The whole time she was away

Song Prompt pt. IV

Yeah.. don't feel like you all have to keep doing these, but I found another one. x)


A song you like with a color in the title:  "Violet Hill," by Coldplay
A song you like with a number in the title:  "Three Cheers for Five Years," by Mayday Parade
A song that reminds you of summertime:  "Surfin' USA," by the Beach Boys
A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about:  "Party in the USA," by Hannah Montana
A song that needs to be played LOUD:  "Seven Nation Army," by The White Stripes
A song that makes you wanna dance:  "In the Wild," by Capital Kings
A song to drive to:  "Lovers in Japan," by Coldplay
A song that you never get tired of:  "Cave In," by Owl City
A song from your preteen years:  "Gotta Know," by Lecrae
One of your favorite 80's songs:  "Smooth Criminal," by Michael Jackson
A song you like that is a cover by another artist:  "Running Up That Hill," by Placebo
One of your favorite classical songs:  I do not like
A song from the year that you were born:  "Drive," by Incubus
A song that makes you think about life:  Wow, this is deep.  -_-
A song that has many meanings to you:  "Turn Down for What," by DJ Snake
A favorite song with a person's name in the title:  "What Sarah Said," by Death Cab for Cutie
A song that moves you forward:  "Interlude: Moving On," by Paramore
A song that you think everybody should listen to:  "Saturn," by Sleeping at Last
A song that makes you want to fall in love:  "Good Girl," by Carrie Underwood
A song that breaks your heart:  "Second Family Portrait," by Radical Face
A song by an artist with a voice that you love:  "The Story of You," by Joseph Arze
A song that reminds you of yourself:  "Emily," by From First to Last  (that's a joke (but I actually like that song))