Chest

My footsteps 

Follow trails

I didn't think I'd walk down

It's a path

I didn't choose

But gladly

Accepted

Because

You know

I 

Violently 

Shoved

Away

Any 

Hope

I locked it

Into a chest

And sent it

Off to sea

In a leaking

Pirate ship

I never

Let

Myself think

About how much

I wanted that

Hope back

Never.

So if you ask me

If I would have 

Chosen

These trails I'm on

I maybe

Would cry

Unable

To express

Just 

How

Much

I wanted this

And the hope

I sent away

And I would tell you

Defintely.

That chest

Was opened 

Again

And my hopes

Flooded 

Back out 

Gushing

From the pirate ship

That I had sunk

And with the

Help of the wind

They found me

Again

And this time

I 

Locked them

In my own chest

They were 

There

To stay.

Here

A lovely seed

In

My heart

But

Everyone should know

I didn't 

Simply

Inherit

Hope.

It was 

A process

It was

A storm

Like trying to

Fall back asleep

In the midst of

An endless 

Hurricane 

And when you can

Finally sleep again

All you get

Are nightmares

I

Went through

Much.

However,

That was

The hurricane 

That

Sunk my 

Pirate ship

And two years later

My hope tumbled out again

I had

Missed it

It came to me

And buried itself

Inside

To only grow

Like the trees on the sides

Of these trails I'm on.

Bricks.

Brick by brick,
You're tearing down my wall
A wall I made so long ago
To keep out you and all

And I can feel it, soon enough,
This wall of mine will fall

Tape

And frustration grips me
 Why can't they see me?
 How is there so much
 That I simply can't be?


Why is this not enough?
 I pull out my flaws
 I tape them to paper
 And I count them all

Life in Color

It opened up a door
And a whole world just flooded through
Nothing I had known before
This place had skies of not just blue

An orange I cannot explain
Soft and light, like a beautiful heart
And I see it every day
That we aren't far apart

Twirl.

In a kingdom far away
Across the ocean and past a few days
To the right of the sunset, down stars out of place
Is where she abides, and where she will stay

And quietly, she twirls her hair
Twirling also the thoughts of if you were there
And if you were, well why would you care?
Do you even see the cloak of insignificance she wears?

In a kingdom too far away
Is where you are, and where you will stay
She thinks and she writes and she waits and she waits
'Cause she lives in a castle, but she's only a maid

All of her friends wear gowns of all gems
And she doesn't compare, but is grateful for them
Because how could the princesses of their own kingdoms
Be friends with the girl in the cloak of torn hems?

Inside of her mind, inside of her head
She turns these things over again and again
There's still so much that just hasn't been said
Inside of that cloak she just doesn't know yet

The Art of Missing You

Like a sickness in my soul
That similar ache inside my heart
An infection that took hold
And begins swelling when you depart

This is the art of missing you
I only see you in the night
But when I wake it's even worse
Than it had been in previous light

Hesitant

It's a battle
A struggle
I'm fragile
I don't know who's winning
My love is
Not thinning
Every moment I awake
From the sleep that overcomes
When the morning always takes
Me from the dreams that will succumb
I ponder of the moments
Created by my head
And after a while I realize
Exactly what they meant
It took me forever this time
But it hit me by midday
The significance of last night
And it blew me all away
I was shocked to find the truth
Because of what I've seen before
My heart was always hesitant
I shouldn't have expected much more
You see, you always intervene
I've always let you save me scars
But last night wasn't the same
Something was wrong just on my part
Well, confusion took hold right then
And I was trying to figure it out
But I slipped and my path was to end
I knew I was going straight down
That's when a hand reached to me
It was yours, and I was afraid
I didn't want to take you down as well
And you tried, but I wouldn't be saved
Most nights I let you
So I didn't understand
Why I let myself fall
When you let out your hand
And with everything inside you
With every fiber within
You came right to my rescue
But I was scared that you would slip