Siberia

From the busy parks

To the icy tides

Someday we'll decide

Where we want to live out our lives

For now, we're two sparks

Tumbling along

Keeping the heat on

Even though summer's come and gone

I would sail across the east sea

Just to see you on the far side

Where the wind is cold and angry

There you'll be to take me inside

We'll find ways to fill the empty

Far from all the hysteria

I don't care if we suddenly

Find ourselves in Siberia

Siberia

Inside a street car

Or on a mountain trail

Details, details

You breathe in when I exhale

No matter where we are

Or which way the wind blows

Or how heavy the snow

Nothing can change where we will go

I would sail across the east sea

Just to see you on the far side

Where the wind is cold and angry

There you'll be to take me inside

We'll find ways to fill the empty

Far from all the hysteria 

I don't care if we suddenly

Find ourselves in Siberia

Siberia

Lights

He's been working for hours

And I'm still in bed

Trying to envision

Him in my head

Covered in sweat, 

Moving wood,

Cleaning the fish tank 

Washing down windows,

Or cleaning some kitchen

In a place I call home

That's only home when he's there

So the answer is no, 

This bed at my house isn't home, it's nowhere

And I'm not that sad yet

Just wish I was there today

More than anything, actually

But there wasn't a way

I can't get out of bed,

Because why would I?

I have chores to do

Randoms are coming to my house tonight

So I'll be clinging to Baylie and Izzy

And Kate will be there too

I know it won't be bad

But till then I've got nothing to do

Or, nothing I wanna do.

Is that what we call laziness?

Sorry, at this point I hardly care

Because it sucks when you find yourself here

And the only place you want to be is there

The Silent Game

So here's how the story goes,
It's a little sad, a lot bit sweet
One that no one really knows
We're not people people meet

There's this boy that caught my eye
After a week, I knew his name
But he was funny, I was shy
And so I played the silent game

Tried not to say his name too much
Keep the butterflies at bay
No need to get all my hopes up
But the fluttering still stayed

If we fast forward a couple years
We find us sitting on a rock
Talking about our separate futures
That's all it was to him, just talk

Well, as far as I had known
Which happened to be a small amount
Meanwhile I wished for him on Cola trucks
And he found new words inside his mouth

I hoped he wouldn't decide to push me away
Because talking to him made me see
He thought the way I guessed he did all those days
The only one I wanted close to me

Come autumn, we're best friends
Like two kids who decided to climb the same tree
For once I didn't have to play pretend
That I had somebody with me

If years of waiting led to you
Standing closely by my side
Holding my hand like you do
I would choose you every time

If three days of waiting leads to you
Coming home to me, I'll try
'Cause if I had to wait years again
I would choose you every time

I will choose you every time

Steering Wheels

I didn't see the stars tonight
A different something took me
I didn't see the stars tonight
Maybe I wasn't looking
You're amazed by me,
And I try to receive it
You tell me I'm great,
I'd die to believe it
There's something inside
That tells me to step out
"Believe, for once in your life"
[ B u t   I   o n l y   d r o w n ]
I want to believe that when I grow up
I can make music and be known
I want to believe I'll write songs and play them
But I always know I won't
I don't believe because I'm a pessimist
I don't act out because I don't have confidence
Isn't it painful to know that you could have been something great?
But I couldn't even help Zoe
And now she's gone
I can't even help my own brother
Always wrong

This year I turn seventeen on shaky ground
Because I'm afraid of steering wheels instead of clowns
I know God made me exactly how He wanted me to be
But it seems like it freaking sucks (and I'm the freak)

There's more I want to say.

Oh, my boy, you're alive
Your heart's still beating
So don't you mind, don't you mind
We all drift sometimes




Radical Face

You can't make everybody happy
This much, I know, is true
But this is what it'd look like
If my life was to please you

If I wanted to make you happy
I would pretend he wasn't there
I would only talk to girls
When it came to him, I wouldn't care

I would stay single and complain
Even though I really loved him
I would keep it to myself
With my patience wearing thin

I would know he loved me
But heaven forbid me let you know
I would be silent and miserable
But heaven forbid me let it show

Never make eye-contact with him
Spend all my time and money on everyone else
Ignore any thought of love
To the point where I'm hurting myself



Well, that would make you happy, right?

Water

Music sounds different when you listen from the shower
The speakers from your turntable will play a different art
This song has much more piano, that song really has some bass
You finally hear the lyrics coming from your heart

Because the running water mixed with melodies in the air
Drown out every word coming from you, except the ones in your chest
You don't know where you're going, you don't know who still loves you
But you know Who you serve, so you're doing your best

The scent of the shampoo reminds you of Messiah's Ranch
Like the feeling last night when you wanted to stay
The days fly, and the pendulum doesn't keep up
But every second without him still feels like a day