semi-aloud

He's bouncing around all the walls in my head

It might be a tad better if I was just dead

No, don't get all worried, calm yourself down

This is just my mind speaking semi-aloud

I know it's selfish to wonder whether or not I've ever changed someone's life

But when someone like me has a mind like a knife 

You end up searching for meaning and losing it again

So it's hard to be strong when nothing ever makes sense

I made a shocking discovery that maybe I'm not who I wanna be

I wanted to be so different, maybe a loser, but so that everyone could see

That I wasn't the same, at least I wasn't the same

But I can't tell anymore, and there's no one to blame

*deep breath*

If I wasn't at church this morning, that little girl would have stayed crying in the hallway

Rather than coming into the classroom

Maybe she would have gone in anyway

But whatever, I'll try to count it on my list of differences

There's one