Trail Mix

Things are changing

I see it in their eyes, caught it in her smile

It's like living a dream

And knowing I'll wake up in a little while

Dad calls during school hours

Just to check up on me when he's away

The days are rough at his work

That, and he wants to know I'm okay

Rebekah opens the door to my room

Interrupting my midnight puppet show with my brothers

She puts her pillow and blanket on the floor

And we all tell jokes, one after another

Dad's been telling us he loves us more than he used to do

Because everything goes away, I guess

Isaac brings me a bowl of cereal

When it takes me too long to get out of bed

Ethan takes walks by himself

Just to give him time to think

Rebekah hugs me out of nowhere

'Cause she'll be gone before I can blink

Everything goes away

Isaac slid a note underneath my door

When I was sobbing in my room on Sunday

He made me a bowl of trail mix

Maybe it's 'cause he's afraid I'll go away

I watch her fade

But there's nothing I can say

I'm not close enough,

I'm not close enough

It's like everyone knows the plot twist to my story

And their lips are sealed, but they look at me

Knowing my fate, saying something with their eyes

Something I always fail to read

One boy's dreams 

And another boy's theories

But theories aren't enough

So they all sound like me

Just barely reaching the surface

I was almost something

Think I almost had it

But everything is changing

I take the trash out in the rain

Everything will go away