Try.

There's too much
I don't know how to say
There's too much
I don't know how to pray
There's too much
I don't know how to write
There's too much
That I'm holding tonight
"What's wrong with her now?
"I thought she was okay!"
Yeah, maybe I did too
But that thought never stays
I don't know how to write
I don't know how to speak
I don't know how to fight
I don't know how to breathe
I don't know how to die
I don't know how to scream
I just know how to cry
I just know how to bleed
I'm not sure how any of this
Is getting out anymore
Because I can't talk to anyone
And I can't write like before
I don't know if I'm just survivng or not
I'm afraid to ask myself
And I'm afraid that I will run out of use
That there's nobody I can help
I had to smile
I had to lie
I had to leave
And say goodbye
I had to sob
I had to dry
Now I have to live
I have to try