Okay, so here I am
Writing whatever comes to mind
Simply to distract myself
From the thoughts I'd have otherwise
I tried getting on Instagram
But it's so boring
And I tried reading blogs
But I'm done already
So here I am
Trying not to let my head run
Just to leave me feeling lonelier than ever
And soaked in fears at half-past one
So no, don't feel bad for me
Most of you have been here before
It happens, it happens, I'm doing what I can
So no sympathy, por favor
I am just a bit upset
For finding myself back in this mess
I was doing so well
Oh well
Maybe all of you know all my problems by now
So maybe I won't repeat them in rhymes
But I haven't got much else to talk about
That would sound somewhat poetic in keeping time
Okay, let me try something different.

I love Baylie.
I love Baylie because she's stood the test of time
She's been a true friend to me,
She's always asked if I'm alright
She texts me randomly because she loves me
And asks how she can pray for me
I love Baylie because her eyes sparkle
And even when she's crying, to me she's beautiful
Because there's something more than pretty mascara and blush
It's when your skull smashes to the ground, and you manage to get back up
So when Baylie tells me she's tearing at the seams
I know what it means
It means it's another cliff, another fire in a safe place
It's another knife, another thorn, another wet face
But she will come on through it, or I will walk through that hell with her
So when she feels like she's a goner, I pray she knows I always miss her

I love Hope.
I love Hope because she hasn't always been through
What someone else is going through
But her storms are bigger than anyone knows
So she can understand others like no one else could do
She cares that sometimes I can't sleep
Because she's feeling the same thing
But even if she always slept soundly
And had the best dreams, she'd still care about me
I love Hope because of her humble beauty
That would melt the hardest heart
She's playful, yet incredibly wise
She's held on when the world's been torn apart
She is brave, she is strong
To keep moving on
Hold your head high and walk
You can crawl, but don't stop
Sometimes no one sees the bullets in her chest
But I do, so I pray that she'll still try her best

I love Jillian.
I love Jillian because I can trust her
To never just decide she'll believe the rumors about me
And turn her back to walk away
After all the years of our differences
I know this thing will stay the same
She dreams of a castle
That she can't see because of the fog
And the doubts are screaming louder
But she still sings her song
She's brave enough to be loyal to me
Even if we don't ever get coffee
Her love is evident by what she does and doesn't say
And through her words, somehow, I know she always sees
She would never hurt her friends
And she's bold enough to hold onto her imagination
Even if it's fragmented
And even if the strain cuts her hands open

I love Grace.
I love Grace because she's so intelligent
She seeks wisdom, and uses the wisdom she has
There's a gleam in her eyes of understanding
Though many miss it when they walk by too fast
She brings light when she hugs you
She'll encourage the oppressed
You can confide in her
And in her I have a true friend
She can tell how others feel
She apologizes if something might have been taken the wrong way
Such humility is a gem only found in a few
She learns to appreciate the past and hold onto today
I love Grace because she pays attention to the details
And notices the little things
She cherishes her friends
And you should hear her sing

I love Nick.
I love Nick because he is a pessimist
Who's had some rough yesterdays
But he tells me that everything
Will be alright anyway
I have more hope for him than he does
I pray that his eyes would be opened
But I love him because he's a good friend
Even though he's been broken
He thinks and thinks
But feels things deeply
Which, I know, is painful
But I believe it's a good thing
Sometimes he tells me what's going on
And I tell him about my life, too
And we'll complain or give each other advice
And we always make it through
He puts his thoughts into songs
And sings them with conviction
Strums away on his ukulele
His eyes looking into another dimension

I love Joseph.
I love Joseph because he lets me be sad
Instead of telling me to suck it up
Even when he doesn't understand why I'm sad
He just wants to make it better, which, yes he does
He has this playful glint in his eyes
And this excited skip in his step
Like he's thrilled to just be alive
And it always comes back after he's been upset
And when he's down, it's okay
I just hope to make him feel better
You always want that in a friend
Just someone who tries to make it better
Hope I do a good job sometimes
I love Joseph because no matter what instrument he plays
He plays it with passion, and does it well
And he makes me laugh more than I thought I could
He makes the joy inside my heart swell
He listens to what I say
I know he has my back
Apologizes for blowing air on my face
But I'm alright with that
I love Joseph because he cares
And really, that means a lot to me
Just the fact that he even cares
Makes me think my life is a dream
He holds the door for me
And you know, that's pretty nice
He's steady when I'm up and down
He helps me skate along the ice
His laugh is precious, he talks to me
And I feel the world around me freeze
He's gentle and kind, always in my mind
I pray he'll always stay who God made him to be

I love Mom
I love Dad
I love Rebekah
I love Ethan
I love Isaac
I love Izzy
I love Hannah
I love Alex
I love Mrs. Lenzie
I love Kate
I love Jenna
I love Emalie
I love Zoe
I love Luke
I love Jordan
I love Mrs. Cindetta
I love Jonathan
I love Katie
I love Charla
I love Caroline
I love Mr. John
I love Kristen
I love J-Lyon
I love Madison

And the rest

But most of all, I love Jesus Christ my Lord, for giving my life such a wonderful cast, and helping me through tonight (and not just that).