My Favorite Plot Twist

I love the whispers in my mind

That tell me things will be alright

That brighter days are still in sight

Darkness dies and blue are skies

I don't want to be someone 

Who tries to be someone else

And that's one thing I've never struggled with

But I'm still somehow aggravated with myself

I guess that's okay

I wasn't born to be perfect

Still, I must say

There are things I wish I could be

Just honestly 

The night is sometimes just a covering

A black sheet over the earth

And the holes in the sheet are what we call stars

Holes that let daylight show us what we're worth

But sometimes the night is when the air is invisible

And the galaxy is more than daylight could ever be

We count the stars like we'll ever know

And look for Jupiter, maybe someday we'll see

We think, "Maybe my identity is out there,

"Or maybe someone knows it already."

Well, maybe you're right about how much I care

And maybe I am anything but steady

I want to be the strong one
Who lasts in
The long run
But the only song sung
By me is
The wrong one
All I want to be

Is the girl of whom they speak

'Cause when they talk of Emily

She just sounds like a dream

They tell of her goodness 

She's funny and kind

I heard that she's beautiful 

Both out and inside

And that she's a poet

Who's amazing and wise

But I'm afraid all of those 

Are pitiful lies

So I will strive

To someday arrive

At being the Emily 

They all describe

If I were to spend five minutes

Of giving honest answers

It just might help me out

Or it might end in disaster

I will check and check again

But I know how it will end

Still, somehow I don't stop

Even though you never did

Funny, random words sometimes spill out

Like right this second, right here and now

Maybe once in a while I'll write about

How I sit here at this desk when I'm happy or down

A storyteller once said
During all the stories she was giving
That while fairytales seem best
The best story's the one that you're living
And oh, believe me
Mine is FULL of plot twists
I wasn't expecting that,
And I never foresaw this
But while my days can be tough
Little blessing appear on my doorstep
All wrapped up in ribbon and love
Guiding me so I won't misstep
Sometimes my tears fall on answered prayers
Finally knowing I'm not alone
Finally knowing someone's there
That this story won't yet break my bones
This year ripped my heart
Through the middle and tore me apart
January through March
And April and May were hard
But gosh, I learned so much
It got so much better and lightened a bunch
Unbelievable, really, I'd say
Once I decided I needed to pray
This story scares me so
But my Author will not let me go
And this year, I'm sure, I know
Is my favorite of all that I own
Full of ups and downs
Throwing me around
Giving me so much
To be happy about
And sometimes I am Heaven-kissed
Or greeted with a hard fist
But of all the ones on that list
You are my favorite plost twist.